And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart. Galatians 6:9
Hello and welcome back to another weigh in day! Last week was 2.8 gone and this week it's 1.4. On my BIRTHDAY WEEK might I add. The reason I am adding that is...well, lets delve into a little history before we begin that explanation shall we?
I started Weight Watchers for the first time in December of 2005. My self and a friend decided we didn't want to be fat anymore. She had done WW before but I had not. I stayed on plan for a year and lost over 60 pounds. After we moved from MI to NC I "fell off the wagon" so to speak and allowed myself to be consumed with..self. I was depressed and going through a very hard time and decided I "deserved" to eat what I wanted because that was my only "happy moments". Of course now I know, thanks to God, that living for my self and doing what my self wants only brings harm and pain and suffering. And I got what I deserved out of it alright, FAT and UNHEALTHY. So...once again (because it worked so well the first time) I went back to Weight Watcher's with a new friend from my new church. I don't remember how much I lost that time, I think it was around 25-30 pounds. Then all "hell" broke loose in my life and I literally did not have the strength to fight for my health. It took all I had just to fight for some semblance of sanity. I sank lower and lower and my weight climbed higher and higher. I ate whatever I wanted and whenever I wanted. I think sometimes I was trying to smother the pain of what was happening with the pain of being sick from eating like that. I was always ill to my stomach. Always had indigestion and headaches. I felt lethargic and couldn't get the energy up to even think straight most days. A year and a half went by, in that time I tried a few different ways to lose weight but always gave up. Things started getting better with the situations that had been occurring for so long. Healing came, freedom from anger and resentment and bitterness came. But I still couldn't get myself back on the train of weight loss for some reason. Then I realized that it was because I was still holding on to some resentment toward the people involved in the "situation" that occurred the previous year. I can't really go into details because it would be wrong of me and I absolutely do not want to even if it wasn't..but I will say my weight was a major factor in what had happened and I felt like "YOU WON'T EVER DO THAT TO ME AGAIN!" And so I kept gaining..until I reached the highest I have ever been in my life.
I kept praying and asking God to help me let that go. He did. Once I opened my hand, He took it out and threw it as far as the East is from the West. I've never felt so motivated, in control of my eating habits or "steadfast" on any eating plan I've ever done...ever. There are no words to describe the difference in how I felt before and how I feel now.
Back to the explanation: Any time I've been on an "eating plan" of any kind I've always used my Birthday as an excuse to blow it bad. Then it would take me a week, sometimes two, to get back on track if ever. This time around was very different and for that I give the credit to God.
So here are a few pictures of me this week. My total weight loss is 16 pounds even since January 7th. In the video (link at the top of this post) I show you a full body shot, front and back, and I'll try to do that more often so you can see more of how I'm doing. God bless you all. I pray you are having a great week and that there is less of you this week than last. (unless you are already thin of course. ;0))
|I thought a picture of my face would be good so you can see the difference between now and when I started.|