I did have a bout with eating bored this week but I stayed within my points target so all was good. I need to get a hold of that boredom monster though because it can carry you away quickly! The Weight Watcher's meeting today was about knowing when you're actually hungry, full and avoiding becoming stuffed or starving. We American's (a large amount of us anyway) don't really know what hunger feels like because we never allow ourselves to get that way. We eat from morning till night, not because we are hungry but because....we want to and it tastes good and it's comforting and...a million other reasons. And if by chance we do allow ourselves to become hungry it's for all the wrong reasons. We didn't have time to eat, we felt guilty about last night's binge and on and on. When I skip a meal, say breakfast, I am so ravenous by the time the next meal time rolls around that I completely blow it eating everything in sight that isn't nailed down. I become incredibly irritable (just ask my Husband and Children..sorry guys) and everything around me has a black cast to it. To me, that's just as bad as over doing it and feeling so full I could pop. Neither one of those situations will get me to my goal weight nor assist me in becoming healthier. Which is what this is really all about, isn't it?
So my goal this week, should I choose to accept it (and I have), is to be more mindful of when I'm eating and why. No matter if it's within my points target or not, if I'm not hungry I shouldn't be eating it. Then I shall be just one step closer to beating the monster that nightmares are afraid of and his name is OBESITY. The Lord has helped me overcome a lot of things in my life. Every time I bend my will to His and say "Ok Lord, you DO know more than me and You ARE capable and willing and I am making a huge mess here, I'll do what you say"...it's always up hill from there.
So we find Nicole today on the steep climb up the mountain of rocky and rough terrain to where I leave behind my self, my fat self, and follow the Lord. Here's a photo or two of me on that path as of today:
Love,
Nicole
2 comments:
Nicole,
I tried to post a comment earlier, but not sure where it went, so sorry if this is a duplicate!
I am so impressed at your honesty and willingness to put the details of your journey out there for all to read, it's not an easy thing to do!
I've had a very similar struggle (as well as a 70 lb weight loss with WW) for the last 10 years. I'm so sick of it, but feel so hopeless, I don't know where to start.
Your strength is very inspiring and I will continue to follow you and cheer you on!
xo, Amy
Hi Amy, Sorry it took me so long to reply. First off, I really appreciate you taking the time to write and encourage me like you did! It's so helpful to me. Thank you.
Second, I SO KNOW HOW YOU FEEL!!!!!!!! I just spent the last two years completely hopeless and gaining weight at a rapid rate. Till I am where I am now, the heaviest I've ever been in my life. The things that helped me get out of that spiral were A. realizing that I was causing myself physical pain in my back, legs, knees, feet etc and I was also causing myself to be so unhealthy that I'm one of those people the Dr's warn about heart attacks, high blood pressure, heart failure etc. That really makes a person sit up and say "what on EARTH am I doing to myself??". And B. I finally realized it's going to take me a long time to lose all of this but that that's ok and very worth all the time and effort to get out of this place. It's a vicious cycle, I felt depressed because I was so fat and unhealthy so I would eat and get fatter and feel more depressed. When I took control of my own mouth and said ENOUGH! My own mouth and this stupid piece of food is not going to kill me and cause me to stay here in depression, self hatred and shame any longer! Then I was able to get the motivation I needed to put the fork down and start learning how to eat to live instead of eating as a sport. And the one who opened my eyes to those truths and gave me that ability was God. Without Him I would have ended up so depressed...I don't want to think of what could have happened.
Surround yourself with people, whether it's on line or in person or both, who are like minded. In the mode to lose weight and be healthy. That helps a ton. I'd love to be one of those people for you and together we can encourage each other to keep going and to remember that WE are more important than any bite of food we could ever take! God bless you Amy, I'm glad you are here. I just started a new youtube channel to help encourage myself and others in this journey. The link is in my newest blog post on this blog. Thank you for being so nice to me!!!!!!!!
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